I officially broke by streak of journaling everyday, It went well for a few days but I was not diligent enough. The reason being that I worked a lot and the last few days life has been unbalanced. I want to talk more about these two topics, starting with work.

This was my first week at the company. Even if everything was new to me, I managed to get used to the system really quickly. By the second day I was already developing a proof of concept which would help another research project from one of my team members. If you have ever done Research and Development, or research work in general, you know that this is something that takes your mind completely which makes It difficult to balance work and life. I felt this quite hard: I really like the programs I am developing and I want to spend the most amount of time possible thinking about these problems. For context, I am working on applications that use eBPF programs in kubernetes clusters for security services like monitoring, fingerprinting, and proxing (I think I can't give further details). It has some operating systems programming which is the part I like, and It has some kubernetes / cloud involved which may be what keeps paying for a roof and food. And so, I am really invested in my work and I usually overwork more than I should, and when I come home I still think about the code and what I could do better. This is partially the reason why I did not write this diary daily, the other reason being that I come home late and I am simply mentally tired.

If I allowed myself to take proper breaks, maybe my life would be more balanced and I would be able to consistently write this blog. On the other hand, there is a strong part of me that really wants to work as much as possible and spend every bit of my energy to do work, for my future. In fact, this part of me believes that you can achieve things and be proud of yourself only by working really hard and by mastering your crafts. That is what I have been doing for many years to stay true to this. With this mentality, you may understand that It is difficult to allow me some time for myself and to rest. However, I realize the importance of this for my well being, the problem is that It does not feel good in my mind. In spite of this, this evening I think I'll take some time off and reflect more on the past week and months, get things clear and organized.

I did not fully explore Linz yet. Today I went running next to the river, and previously I only briefly visited the main city street. The rest of my time outside is spent in the road between the apartment and the office. In my defense, I tried to look for some events in the city but I don't really care about famous singers or artistic exhibitions, so I don't have much to do.

Expenses so far:

 Expenses                           ||           
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 expenses:food                      ||    $48.12 
 expenses:food:non-essential        ||     $9.20 
 expenses:food:refundable           ||    $20.00 
 expenses:household:bathroom        ||     $7.86 
 expenses:household:kitchen         ||     $8.74 
 expenses:household:washing-machine ||     $7.49 
 expenses:legal:refundable          ||    $19.92 
 expenses:non-essential             ||     $4.45 
 expenses:rent                      ||   $656.00 
 expenses:rent:refundable           ||   $750.00 
 expenses:travel:arrival            ||    $39.47 
 expenses:travel:public-transport   ||    $60.50 
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                                    ||   $1631.75

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Travel: Ephemeris, Index